“The miracles that could be found, they’re waiting down the unknown road” (Pennywise – Unknown Road)
Dreaming my past dreams in the here and now, inviting me to make that decision towards those dreams, the decision I couldn’t make, didn’t dare to make back then. This opportunity now presents itself again. Again I have a choice, again I have an excuse not to follow through, or I have the choice to do but with a sacrifice to make. This time, I chose to follow through. Let’s see what the result will be. I realized that before I let myself be held back by myself and by others, only to regret that decision each and every time, hence this time I won’t.
Because,
The time is now. Not tomorrow, not the day after, not next week and not when my life is going go smoothly and will be in perfect balanced (because it never will). The time is never right as Doris Lessing said.
When we are in doubt about what would be the best way forward, we can turn to our bodies for advice. Very often a choice translates into two behaviors: the right choice comes with relief, exhilaration/joy, excitement and motivation; the wrong choice comes with neurotic or uncontrollable behaviors (restlessness, scratching, itching, numbing, nail biting, overindulging in <drug of choice>,..). Categorizing our behaviors in that way may give us an indication where we are and makes us aware of the choice and of the ensuing decision..
Another option to approach choice is based on what I heard Jim Carrey say once in a fragment of a speech: you can make a decision either from a perspective of love or fear. The former is clearly the one we should be striving for, but the latter is easier to make. In the end though, mostly the hard choices are the ones that are the most worthwhile..
